extremely specific things in songs that i love (an incomplete list)

  • the key change at the end of country roads, take me home
  • the “she loves you, yeah, yeah, yeah” at the very end of all you need is love
  • this live version of fix you where the audience overwhelms chris martin in the last chorus and finishes the song
  • the part near the end of somebody to love where it climbs and climbs and climbs
  • the “dearly beloved” section of  jesus of suburbia
  • this one line in push“And I don’t know if I’ve ever been really loved by a hand that’s touched me, and I feel like something’s gonna give”
  • “peace up! a-town down! (yeah!)”
  • the charango and the flutes and the panpipes in the instrumentation of whenever, wherever
  • the fact that we as a society loved kesha’s verse in timber so much that someone, somewhere decided that we could edit out pitbull completely, so that there now exists a version where kesha sings the whole thing herself, and it – as the kids say – absolutely slaps
  • the electronic interlude in twrp’s synthesize her
  • the fact that i listened to i know i know i know so many times on a music trip my senior year of high school that even now, in my thirties, i still can only associate this one particular song not just with how i felt as a heartsick, disaffected teenager, but with the entire city of chicago, full stop
  • the live version of harry styles’ two ghosts that he sang as a duet with stevie nicks
  • prince’s guitar solo in the version of while my guitar gently weeps from the rock & roll hall of fame’s tribute to george harrison
  • the absolute, unbridled joy that is the entirety of whitney houston’s i wanna dance with somebody
  • dolly parton’s cover of stairway to heaven. just – the whole song.
  • “i was born in düsseldorf and that is why they call me rolf”

live and learn and never forget it

A long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away the year 2012, I originally started this blog as an alternative to my LiveJournal. LiveJournal was always more “personal” to me – it was where I posted my writing, yes, but it was also where I would yell and flail and talk with my friends, and write about the ongoing nonsense of my days, or the silly, fannish things I was passionate about. This blog was always meant to be serious; a place where I would be professional, and where I could archive the short fiction and poetry I was writing at the time. I always intended on doing more with this site – putting up more fiction! bits of my novel! responses to topical pop culture-y things! – but I never quite got around to it. Finishing my undergraduate degrees got in the way, then graduate school, then dealing with job changes and relationship issues, then moving between Hawaii, the Adirondacks, Buffalo, and Boston, and then more personal issues, then graduate school again, and…

I think you can see where I’m going with this.

One of my goals this year was to write more, regardless of whatever else I had going on in my life. Now that I’m in the early part of my thirties, I think it’s important to have a place where I can talk about not just the challenges I’m facing, and the things I’m learning, but the struggles and the successes that I’m dealing with, too. It’s good to have a place where I can celebrate all the different parts of me, rather than compartmentalizing everything.

I want to be the kind of person who pushes themselves to do good, to do better; I want to be the kind of person who sets goals and actually keeps them. The 2010s weren’t always the greatest time for me, but it’s 2020, now, babes. It’s a whole new decade of change and possibility ahead, and I think that in the midst of it all, I’m going to finally have some fun in the process.

Hopefully, since you’re here, you will, too.

So come on, guys. Let’s go have an adventure. ❤